My surgery is scheduled for July 5th. Cancer has stripped away from me so much of what I thought was important. I see life so differently now. The only thing that is important is those you love, nothing else matters. We spend our entire lives worrying about useless stupid things. I'm a completely different person now then before my diagnosis. I'm sad about the surgery I'm going to have to go though, but I want to live. I'm ready to start my life a new. 29 years ago, my first born sons due date was July 5th. I think that's a good sign. It's time to give birth to myself again. The intense years of Mothering are over.