Monday, June 25, 2012
Had an amazing weekend. My youngest son graduated from High School. All four of my sons were around, unfortunately not at the same time. My oldest decided to have take his vacation week here at home. We are so happy to see him, he surprised his dad, which was so much fun.
Friday, June 22, 2012
I can now honestly say I know what REAL GRATITUDE is! The growth in my hubbies lung was benign! I can't explain the overwhelming joy I felt upon receiving that news! It's a feeling I've had only a few times in my life, the truest highest HIGH ever! Tomorrow my youngest son graduates from High School. 20 years of our children in the school district, a bitter sweet day for sure, but one that we can now celebrate freely!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
I hate to write it but GOODBYE and GOOD RIDDANCE to the Spring of 2012, although I went on the greatest trip of my life, the remainder of it was pure hell. We start Summer 2012 off with great news, that beautiful word Benign. I am so happy I could Scream THANK YOU at the top of my lungs!
Friday, June 15, 2012
|Sow Bear guarding tree with her 3 cubs|
I set out on my hike with a very heavy heart, deep in thought about my hubbies on going nightmare with his cancer. We went for a second opinion yesterday to one of the best hospitals in the world and have decided to put him in their hands for future care. They will be doing another biopsy and more surgery in the next week or so. Today I felt like laying down and sobbing. There is no escaping the worry we are going through, this is real life stuff, no peace right now. I'm trying so hard to be strong and just be there for him and our sons. It all feels like too much some days. As I hiked along all of a sudden, Monty was off after something. I looked up as I had been scanning the ground looking for herps, there was a sow and three cubs! The cubs all promptly treed as called Monty in. The sow did a couple of bluff runs at Monty and another at me when we tried to go past her guarding the base of the tree that her cubs were in. I felt no fear, but retreated to a more comfortable distance from her and then sat down and watched her for about ten minutes, she soon laid down and went to sleep. Her cubs safely sleeping up in the tree, she at the base. You never know what awaits you when you take to the trail. This was one of my favorite nature moments EVER! So it goes, the good with the bad....it sure made my day!
While we ate a delicious hubby made dinner under our canopy outback, we watched 2 bucks in the backyard. It was awesome!
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
|Lay down in the field of tall grass and guess who comes along|
|My Cathedral~Gym & Psychiatrist|
|Where there is death, there is new life|
There has been nothing easy about the last 5 weeks...NOTHING. And the odd thing about it all is you really begin to learn some important life lessons. One thing that I've found out is that I really have no one besides my hubby who understands me, who knows how to support me in a time of crisis. I know now that I've got to get good and steady on my own two feet because that is all I'm guaranteed to have help to carry me though the rest of this life during times of crisis. Some people are lucky to have family members who are there for them thick and thin, I've not been that blessed. Mine are too wrapped up in themselves to be able to give back what I've so freely given to them. I'm done with it. I won't drain my own emotional energy for them again. It has to be a two way street.
Today's hike was great. A Red-bellied was feeding a hatchling as was a Pileated Woodpecker. I had good views of both. Great Crested Flycatchers and a Kingfisher added to the great bird that filled the forest.
Yesterday hubby bought our Vitamix. This morning I made up our first green drinks, a bit bitter...but good! It's amazing how little you get when you grind up piles of fresh healthy greens. The blender is very easy to use, and clean up is a snap. I like the idea of using the entire vegetable and not throwing away the pulp like you do with a juicer. It's a fantastic way to eat a ton of healthy greens. Green drinks everyday from now on!
Friday, June 8, 2012
|My training partner, so handsome!|
|Female Snapping turtle out to lay eggs|
|Female Wood Turtle|
|Great Blue Heron|
|5 foot Black Snake|
Thursday, June 7, 2012
|The trail is calling me....get up and out there! RUN!|
Tuesday, June 5, 2012
The baby squirrels were released almost a week ago and continue to hang around the feeders and their cage several times each day. They all look good. This morning three out of four of them were in the maple tree next to the pond. They are running up and down playing. I went out and gave them some food and a handful of peanuts which they promptly took and buried.
Monday, June 4, 2012
I begin today in spiritual practice. I will not put on the TV or any music. I have a lot to be grateful for and I need to concentrate on that. I don't want to allow the negatives that have recently been a part of our lives to take over. It is a rare day that I am alone in the house, I am enjoying the quiet and time to think and reflect. It is raining and I'm am feeling completely at peace in my heart. Each day to get here on this beautiful earth with your loved ones is a gift. Cherish it, every blessed second.
Sunday, June 3, 2012
I am happy to have a brand new full moon in a new month to start my life over again. The last month has been pure hell. I'm grateful it is over. I will never again look at life the same way. I will also never again take for granted anyone I love! I now really know exactly what is important in this life. Until we are tested, we skate through our lives thinking we know why we are here, and most of us don't have a clue. We spend all of our time on personal pursuits and seriously neglect our closest relationships. I am grateful for my loved ones...period. Nothing else matters in this life but them....WHEN IT'S ALL SAID AND DONE, LOVE IS ALL THERE IS! LOVE IS OUR MOST PRECIOUS GIFT. Thank you higher powers for a second chance to get it right. Look at the picture...see the heart? There is my message....even the moon is trying to tell me!