Hanging in there.

I'm still struggling to get a handle on my life as it is right now.  I'm having good days and bad days.  I'm not a good sick person.  I've spent my life being basically healthy and when I've been sick I seek answers and treatments that have always worked.  This time around it's taking so long. It's been 9 weeks since I woke up in body hell.  I need to be appreciative of the good days and stay positive. There are times I feel like those around me think I'm making up how horrible I feel, as they all say you don't look sick. How do I get to a better place?

Yesterday I went out for a walk and immediately felt embraced and comforted by the forest, the peace that enveloped me was so soothing.  I know that despite how I feel, I must head back outside as often as possible in order to get well.  There are thousands of people who have done different protocols to heal from Lyme. Everyone has something different for me to try.  I'm so overwhelmed. I've read way too much and it has scared the living crap out of me.  Why isn't anyone in the medical world paying attention to this epidemic? Why hasn't anyone found more effective drugs to kill it?  There are far more people that I know who have had or have lyme then any other disease.   I'm going to try my best  NOT to read another thing about Lyme until I see my PA again in 2 week.  I'm going to continue on my prescribed meds, have bullet proof coffee in the morning, drink an enriched green drink with a grass powder and mushrooms.  Take the OTCs prescribed, Ibuprofen, Alka Seltzer Gold & Benedril.  Bone broth for lunch, fill it will cooked veggies and small amount of meat. Kimchi and Kraut as a side.  Take all my supplements after lunch. Dinner at least 3 different veggies and salad and small serving of meat.  Drink lots of water with lemon and lime and organic green tea. If I feel the need to eat between meals, fresh raw veggies and sprouts.  Detox baths everyday.  Walking in the forest every day with out fail. Staying outside for longer periods of time.  Sun. Yoga. And meditation. Only positive thoughts.   I will have an empty nest two weeks from today, I have the time to take care of ME.  I will beat this and I will be better then ever.